6/27/08

You can't go back, can you?

After another long break, I'm back. Its not like I haven't had anything to say, but my focus drifted away from sharing in this space. My last entry discussed the challenges in re-entering the 'normal' world and returning to old habits. Rather than rehashing those sentiments, I can pretty much say that it isn't any easier a few months down the road. However, it still remains a matter of perspective. The challenges of remaining conscious in an unconscious world are numerous and I've allowed myself to fall into a few 'traps' of easy living. The really cool thing about this path is everything is as it should be. I'm in the process of following my path and creating these constant lessons; lessons that continue to give and give. I've manifested some pretty amazing experiences in the past few months that have provided me with opportunities for growth. I've come to accept that the universe does not create things for us, but allows us the space (rope) in which to create the experiences we desire (consciously or unconsciously). We definitely get what we ask for. If you're feeling some resistance towards that last statement, you may want to compare your thoughts to what your results are. I have been. I'm on my second trip to France (for work). I've been to an island in the southern Caribbean (San Andres). I moved into a beautiful home. All of this in the space of about 5 months. I am blessed and yet there seems to be a nagging dissatisfaction that lurks beneath the surface. It's more a dissatisfaction with my spiritual growth than anything else. Maybe I'm holding myself to a standard that isn't attainable, but I feel like I can make better choices. The good news is that I acknowledge this is part of the growth process I am apparently trying to speed up. Once you realize that our purpose is to grow and experience, it makes it easier to allow the universe to "bring it on". The Tao Te Ching talks about being like water, just flow and be. When obstacles come your way, flow around, over, through, but follow the path of least resistance. It's much tougher than it sounds when you factor in the tendency to attempt to control things. The only thing we truly control is our perspective. Even our emotions can run rampant, but we do have the capability to control how we perceive a situation and thus change an emotional response. That is one part of living in the now. That truly is all there is. As Eckhart Tolle has beautifully outlined in his book, A New Earth, we have the ability to choose our experience. How you feel governs what that experience is. We create our world one moment at a time. That's all there truly is. So from that context, there really is no going back, is there? Till next time... Namaste.